re jane. patricia park. (301)

i picked up re jane after seeing it in a post on book riot.  a retelling of jane eyre with a half-korean, half-white/american protagonist!  i was in!

oh and if you read my previous post, and wondering why i was am okay with this retelling and not the last novel i read, was because park did take all of her storylines directly from bronte, instead, she took the overall structure, but wrote her own book.

before i start, if you ever read my post on jane eyre, you know that i loved it, but i did have issue with rochester being the only person ever talked with so i felt bad that she had no other experiences other than him.  though i mean their love was true, i still always wondered you know.  i didn't have this issue with re jane though i was shocked at times by how sheltered jane was but while during bronte's time all women were that sheltered, park made sure her jane was aware that she was.

just like jane eyre, re jane, started off with an orphan named jane that lived with family members that treated her poorly.  jane hoping to escape her uncle, sang, went to to work as au pair for a family.  the rochester of this work was ed farley, the father of the adopted girl, jane was in charge of.  and just like jane eyre there was a wife, but while rochester's was locked away in the attic, this wife, beth, was not crazy (well not in the same way as rochester's first wife) that worked in the attic.  i have to say the fact that ed and beth were married, made me very wary of jane falling in love with ed.  whereas i gushed over rochester and jane's budding romance in jane eyre, i was really uncomfortable about ed and jane's, though it did make me hungry for heroes.  even though park set up beth as an insensitive and overbearing wife and mother, i still was upset with jane for trying to be a homewrecker.  i was grateful that park stopped ed and jane from having sex (the tip doesn't count for me), because i would not have been able to go on with the book.  as you know from other books, i don't like cheaters.  anyway, that is really where the parallels between the two books stop.

i will add that park did include nods to jane eyre, having jane address the reader as a reader and jane's first job was to be at a company named lowood.  i thought these little details were cute.

back to the story, the climax of the novel, is when jane and ed decide to finally have sex, as i mentioned before it didn't happen.  on the night that they were to meet and try it again, jane decided to go to korea to see her grandfather on his deathbed.  the day she decided to leave . . . 9/11.  so as i read, i couldn't really gage the era, i figured it was now.  however, after a mention of the twin towers and the backstreets boys and of course this, i knew.  i have to add, i feel like a lot of books have been alluding to this, which is fine, it must be mentioned especially if a work is set in new york.  however, i feel like it shouldn't be used as a device to cause a drastic change, i think jane could have left on any day and the novel would not have lost anything.

okay, so jane went to korean.  she learned more about who she is, which she needed.  she even became engaged to a guy, but thanks to her aunt and this soap opera realized that she still loved ed.  so she came clean to everyone, ed about her love, beth about their affair, and returned to nyc.  however, once back, she realized just how different she and ed really were, and yes, dear reader, they broke up.  which i actually appreciated, i mean they were at different stages in their lives and also there was so much more she needed to experience.  i mean i was fine with jane eyre ending up rochester, because i mean what else was there for a single girl to do, then to be an old maid.  luckily, though nowadays, we have so many options.  it was great to see jane end up as an independent woman!

a greater part of the novel, aside from this kind of love story and self-discovery, was race, culture and identity.  to start jane was mixed, her mother was korean and her father was america, due to this she felt like an outcast.  people spoke and thought poorly of her mother.  in addition to this, she never felt like she fully identified as a korean.  it was the same situation for the child she was in charge of, devon.  devon was a chinese girl adopted by two american parents.  at school, she felt like an outcast due to her mixed cultured background.  her mother, beth, tried to keep her immerse in chinese culture but she still was not accepted by her fellow chinese students. being mixed and being americanized culturally, i understood how both of them felt uncomfortable among people with the same racial identity as them.  there was a scene in which jane and devon got moon cakes and devon became uncomfortable because although she looked chinese, she wasn't culturally chinese and couldn't speak the language.  i used to feel the same way as a kid, i look filipino but was not raised culturally filipino and did not learn the language, so when i am around alot of filipinos i do not know, i feel uncomfortable.  like jane and hopefully devon, you reach a point where, it doesn't really matter if your own people judge you, you have to learn to be happy with who you are.

in addition to this, i have to add that at the beginning i had mentioned how jane's family was mean towards her.  in jane eyre, her family was outright abusive.  however, in re jane, it was more of a cultural difference which made the reader and jane initially believe that her uncle hated and took her for granted.  its tough because as an outsider, we tend to judge without really knowing, this is what occurred when beth and ed tried to tell jane that she didn't have to obey her uncle (ironically, ed was doing the very thing he critiqued jane's uncle of doing, being controlling).  however, we gradually begin to see that jane's uncle is not a bad guy at all, he made sacrifices for her and he always made sure that she was taken care of even when she tried to push him away.  and in the end, the reader realizes when jane does that some things were lost in translation that maybe what she took as an insult was actually him trying to help her improve or actually meant as a compliment.  in the end, it was great to see her make peace with her uncle and culture.

love me back. merritt tierce. (237)

i saw merritt tierce's love me back on a book riot post and due to its cover, i decided to check it out.  you have to admit that the cover is quite intriguing, the neon lights, the sad yet hopefully sentiment.  i must admit that i am pretty good about judging a book by its cover, because i enjoyed this work.

i had no idea what love me back was about, when i picked it up.  i must have read a blurb about it on book riot but it didn't stick with me.  upon skimming the inside sleeve, i discovered that it was about a single mother and her work at restaurants.  i also learned that tierce was a "5 under 35" honoree and since i enjoyed molly antopol's the unamericans, i had high expectations for this work.  unjustly so, i know, but i did.

i have to say that love me back was beautifully written, i could not put it down, even though at times i was disgusted by what i read.  i guess that would be a testament to how well written it was. love me back is the story of marie, a young woman and her life working in restaurants.  marie, a single mother, though her daughter did not live with her, worked in a handful of restaurants, and spent her free time (the little time that she had, since she worked all the time) drinking, doing drugs, and sleeping with everyone she met at work.  marie's back story, which is revealed to us throughout the novel, and some details not until to the very end, was that marie's life was not so tragic, in fact, it was once filled with promise.  she was yale bound, but a church trip to mexico when she was seventeen, resulted in her being pregnant.  she ended up marrying the baby's father, and they lived together, but she ended up cheating on him, with everyone she worked with.  he learned of her cheating, after marie gave him chlamydia, which she contracted from one of the three men she was sleeping with at the time.  they separated, and he ended up with custody of the child.

throughout the novel, there are sections in which marie's stories are directed to her daughter, in which we learn of how her daughter came to be.  in her narrative, marie constantly spoke of wanting to do better for her daughter, or loving her daughter so much but it's just words.  in the end, one of marie's co-workers call her out on it, explaining that if they really wanted to be with their daughters, then they would be.  marie does love her daughter, but she does lie to herself about wanting to be there for her.  i am sure she loves her daughter, but as she admitted once she did not have that motherly instinct.

instead, the priorities in marie's life are drugs, alcohol, and sex.  i was disgusted and appalled by marie's actions.  i am all for one feeding their sexual appetite, but marie abused her body.  she was on self-destruction mode, she did drugs and had sex to distract herself from the pain she felt.  the pain that marie felt was never explicitly described, there didn't seem to be a specific source, other than life itself.  sure, her parents were overbearing, but they were initially helpful with the child, and she ran away from them.  her husband also seemed to be a good man, he was a responsible father and loved marie.  yet, it wasn't enough for marie.  i understand that yes, she lost her future, though never directly addressed, being unable to attend yale had to have had a negative effect on her.  however, instead of making her daughter the focus of her life, she instead sought ways to destroy herself.  and boy did she.  and i can understand the substance abuse to a certain extend, even the cutting and burning makes sense given her dealing with pain, however i could not believe what she allowed herself and others to do to her body sexually.  marie described situations in which she would do drugs and then let guys take turns with her in one night.  her last escapade before the novel closed, she had sex with brothers, in a moving truck?!?!?  it was disgusting to read about, and i couldn't imagine how someone can allow that to happen to themselves.  and i guess the frustrating part was that marie was better than that.  she was smart, but made bad decisions.   there was a handful of times in which she got herself clean, normally motivated by a man, but still she could clean.  she could have escaped the life she had but continue to life it. it was a very dark place that marie was in and i am grateful that i did not understand her.  

and in all honesty, i am not sure what to take away from this other then life is suffering.  and sometimes life deals you a shitty hand and instead of trying to make the best of it, you can just say fuck it and do what you want.  

regardless, of my approval of marie's life,  i do approve of tierce.  she is an amazing writer and i love forward to reading more from her.

oh and before i close i just have to add.  there was a part in which marie discussed how sometimes she will judge customers.  how they will come in, in jeans and order soft drinks and she thinks that there are going to waste her night and tip her poorly.  however, they end up asking for a bottle of champagne and wine and the next thing she knows they are leaving her a big tip.  this made me laugh because i feel like this happens to my friend larry and i when we go out to dinner.  he is a gm and is limited on his days off and sometimes we will go out to lunch or dinner and he will wear a sweatshirt and i look like i'm twelve.  and i'm pretty sure people are like why are these kids wasting my time.  and then we start ordering and it's majority of the menu and the servers realizes that we are going to get a good tip and that server's demeanor towards us totally changes.  lol

2 a.m. at the cat's pajamas. marie-helene bertino. (235)

i saw ads for 2 a.m. at the cat's pajamas on goodreads, but didn't give it much consideration. 

i also saw it on flavorpill's list of must-reads for august and still did not think of checking it out.  however, after reading mira jacob recommend 2 a.m. at the cat's pajamas on a book riot post on authors' summer readings (i loved her book), i decided to check it out.

oh and before i go on, i have to say that i impressed myself.  i had read 4 of the 5 authors (maggie shipstead, emma straub, kevin wilson, eleanor henderson) with blurbs on the back of novel.   (just wanted to brag about how well read i am.)

what a delightful book!!! (i should warn you now that this has spoilers, so go pick up the book first. also i have decided, i'm going to stop adding this into post, one should just know that there will always be spoilers.  you have been warned.)

the book takes place within a day (kind of like an season of  24), each chapter noted by the time, with the climax being at 2 a.m. at the cat's pajamas, a jazz club in philadelphia.  at the center of  2 a.m. at the cat's pajamas is madeline, a 9-year-old girl with the need/dream/goal to sing.  i fell in love with madeline, though she was not your typical 9-year-old, she was a diamond in the rough.  she smoked cigarettes, cursed like a sailor and didn't put up with any bullshit.  the reason for madeline's tough exterior was because she lost her mother and father.  her mother to cancer, her father to the inability to cope to his wife's death.  madeline's father was home but did not take care of madeline, instead he laid around the house in a drunken stupor, listening to jazz records.  with both parents absent, mrs. santiago, the owner of cafe near her home, was madeline's primary caretaker.  as madeline's story unfolded, we saw that friends and people that knew her mother, helped take care of her as well.

though madeline's mother was physically gone, her spirit wasn't, for she still gave her daughter advice via "how to" cards left in a recipe box.  i love the idea of these cards (maybe i will steal it for when i get married, have my guest write how to cards.)  the cards range in topics from "how to sew a button, to how to make wrapping ribbons into curlicues, how to check car oil, how to talk about a book you haven't read."  the one that madeline was looking for "how to get over poetic horrors", which  listed "ice cream, chocolate, whiskey, nina simone "live at the village gate" dance, national geographic, get your hair and nails done, sing."  cute idea, huh!  the last one sing, madeline could actually due.  in a sweet memory shared via her father, we learn that madeline could sing before she could talk, thus starting a life long love of jazz.  this love of jazz and need to sing resulted in madeline heading toward the cat's pajamas.

with madeline as lead, there is an assortment of characters as her supporting cast.  another central character was miss sarina greene, madeline's teacher.  sarina moved back to philadelphia when her mother became ill.  divorced, she was haunted by ben, a boy that broke her heart at prom, many years ago.  due to a chance encounter with a women she knew from high school, sarina and ben cross paths again.  their love story was great but i did become frustrated by it.  people just need to be honest, love would be so much easier, if everyone was truthful about their feelings.  i must add i did enjoy reading about sarina and ben's walking adventure around philadelphia, though i do not understand how they could stand jumping into fountains with it being so cold.

another important character was lorca, the owner of the cat's pajamas.  i must admit that i did become confused by all the characters that were introduced via him.  his subplots include the possible losing of the cat's pajamas due to too many violations and coming to terms with his son's talent as a jazz guitarist.  though lorca loved jazz, he did not want his son to lead the life of a jazz musician.

the thing that i enjoyed about this novel was that every character was given a background in which we were allowed to contextualize them.  even the minor players that seemed to hold no real significance.  i appreciated this because as humans we only see our story, and never really get to know all the random people that cross our path.  it was nice in this universe to know what everyone was dealing with and who they were, it made the world seem less big and scary.

so what exactly happened at 2 a.m. at the cat's pajamas?!?!!  magic.  madeline made it up on stage and changed people, freed them filled them with hope.  she didn't save the cat's pajamas, but she filled hope for whatever lays ahead.  as ben told the man while waiting for the train, "everything is going to be fine." even philadelphia with its "sorry shit" couldn't hold anyone down.

a truly delightful book, with memorable characters.  bertino is an excellent writer, very witty, and had a rhythm to her writing.  i also appreciated how there were so many mini cliffhangers in the book, having to quickly turn the page and start the next chapter to discover how the story would unfold.  a great read, it was definitely the cat's pajamas.